*Disclaimer: If you don’t get the reference of the post title, you may not like what comes next.*
Friends. I have to admit something to you all and I’ll try to do it in less than 4.3 million words. I’m afraid I’ve been trying to fit a square peg (me) into a round hole (this blog).
You see, when I started back in June of 2016 I was looking for an outlet. A hobby. Something I could do that would provide the ever-elusive “me-time”. It was supposed to be something fun, something I would enjoy. However, in my true, can’t-do-anything-half-way-OCD fashion, somehow this “fun hobby” shifted into a borderline obsessive immersion in blog templates, SEO optimization, and every tutorial I could find on how to make this blog “successful”. Long story short, I derailed.
To get back on track, I had to remember what success means to me, and that is for this blog to actually be something that I enjoy, not another job. I was trying to model what I do after what successful (there’s that word again) bloggers in the design and home décor realm have done, and the truth of it is pretty simple. I’m not them. I’m me. Profound, right?
I cuss too much, I celebrate sarcasm on a very deep level, I thrive on being the center of attention, and I’m pretty damn good at fooling most people into thinking I’m not an absolute disaster. I love design and home décor stuff, but truth be told, I love telling a story so much more. I love
giving unsolicited advice helping people solve a problem or not feel alone. I love making people laugh. I love writing, and I love taking pictures.
When I reflected on the last year of writing this blog, the posts that I enjoyed the most were the authentic, real, and sometimes uncomfortable posts, where I spilled my guts or went on a rant, and consequently got an outpouring of support and people saying, “thank you for writing this, I’m glad to know I’m not alone” or “I can’t wait to read your posts, they always make me laugh.” I mean honestly is there a greater compliment than that? For me there certainly isn’t.
When I thought about it, I realized that I’ve heard “you’re a great writer” far more than I heard “you’re a great designer”, in the last year and a half of writing this blog. How much more validation do I need to follow what I want to do anyway, and that is tell my story… whatever it may be. Yes, design and DIY and home décor stuff will stay, but only as it fits into my life, because if I’m being
selfish honest, I’m just after the compliments connection with other humans. That’s what makes me the happiest, and really when you get right down to it, aren’t our connections with people really all we have in this life?
I’m getting unintentionally deep and profound here and I haven’t even been drinking, I swear. Maybe it’s the holiday hangover, maybe it’s the impending New Year, or maybe I just needed to give you all a warning shot that there will be more
cuss words honesty here on the blog, but whatever the case, I hope that you’ll stick around so that we can have lots of genuine, awkward, and hilarious fun figuring this thing out together.
Cheers to enjoying the chaos!